Arpita Roy

Away

There are no dreams in the ocean. At Strandhill,
the waves comply with the tall grass,
the tall grass obeys the storm wind.

Contrary to my vacant imagination, I find
the marmalade to be bitter. The pizza, I request
without cheese. Every day, I take a bus somewhere.

When I cry in an oversized bathtub, the crystallized salt
knitted in my hair, holds its breath. The ceiling becomes
the brittle walls of a seashell. Over the phone,

my husband speaks, someday you’ve to find out
what it is that you find so hard about living.


I try to encircle my bony ankle. I am tired.
Who could’ve foreseen this soft industry of love?


Home

In a letter I never sent my husband I wrote, don’t worry
I don’t expect to be loved in return
. I wrote,
I will take my serendipities to graze by dawn.
You mustn’t feel the pull of that which isn’t yours.


When I was six, I was asked to fight my best friend.
I refused. Everybody laughed at our smallness.

In Fairfax, when the opossum returned, we reveled in joy.
Small animal or otherwise, to be chosen at all
was a blessing. We christened him our own.

A child, on the screen, is carried through a forest.
She says oh my gosh at the poplars & oh my gosh
at the horizon & oh my gosh at the frail leaves yet to fall.

I watch the pasta over-boil. I miss my deadlines.
A domestic crow slakes the summer in its beak.
I forgot I meant to love people.

Arpita received her MFA in Poetry from George Mason University, where she was the Thesis Poetry Fellow for 2023-24. She has been awarded Cheuse Center Travel Fellowship and Bread Loaf Katharine Bakeless Nason Award. Her work can be found in ThrushPsaltery & Lyre and X-Ray. Arpita is from Kolkata, India.